…no pay cut for me.
UPDATE: The Vehicle Testing Assistant position I applied for was offered to someone else. I thought I would’ve been such a great fit for it because I’ve seen some of what this person does by going out to California Speedway with them on March 28th and I have experience and knowledge of the inner workings of automobile dealership service departments–places the Edmunds.com long-term vehicles are taken to when they need servicing. I also thought the fact that I was an internal candidate would have given me the “inside line” (pun intended), but alas that was not the case. The most exciting prospect was that it could have possibly put me on a track to become an editor who evaluates and writes about vehicles.
My contact in HR said the decision makers may have thought I was a poor fit because they wouldn’t want me going down to an entry-level position (even though that is what I totally wanted). Maybe she was just saying something nice to comfort me. After all, I know HR people have taken psychology classes and all that jazz. To her credit though, she is always nice to me. In my reply to her e-mail, I asked if I could know why I wasn’t the one chosen for the position. She said she would ask the people involved and try to get back to me. I figured it would be good to know because there may be things I can learn about or work on/improve upon. I believe this is a “dream” still worth chasing while I’m “young.”
I think it was a little easier to swallow the disappointment because I overheard something a few feet away some of the people involved were discussing. The facts that my desk is across the aisle from HR and we’re in an open-air environment didn’t help too. I tried to put 2 and 2 together and developed the “hunch” that I probably didn’t get it. That all happened on Wednesday afternoon which gave me some time to “prepare” myself for the “bad” news. During this time, I was convicted that I needed to fully trust God with this situation and not worry about it so much myself because I know He is in complete control.
This afternoon, I e-mailed my contact in HR to find out what was (really) up because she told me last week I would hear something by the end of this week. I also didn’t want to be thinking about it at all over the weekend.
I believe knowing I probably didn’t get the job, helped God’s peace come into the picture (Philippians 4:7). The cool thing about God’s peace in Christ Jesus is that it surpasses all (human) understanding. The average person may think, “You must be really disappointed,” or “That totally ‘stinks!'” But I find myself thinking, “Yeah. I’m disappointed, but God has blessed me in so many other ways that I can’t complain.” I exist to live for Him after all. Not my will, but His will be done. May what happens as a result of this give Him the most glory possible. After all, this is what I originally prayed for and I hope this is what you all out there who were praying for me were praying for as well.
I tried focusing on the fact that I have a great job here at Edmunds.com still (even though I’m still at my work computer working on something as I write this). The people and the environment here are great. I also remembered there is so much more to this life than we think–whether it’s our jobs, our stuff, or things other than God we think we may find fulfillment and satisfaction in. Last night in small group, we read 1 Peter. I was reminded of the unspeakable joy God gives His children (1 Peter 1:8) and the Newsboys’ song “Joy.”
He gives and takes away…
Blessed be the name of the LORD.
Blessed be His glorious name.
Here’s Edmunds.com Editor-in-Chief, Karl Brauer, on CBS’ The Early Show this morning discussing gas…gasoline that is:
The Star Spangled Banner – Hendrix/Le Mans-style