I think the time since my last entry has been the longest I’ve gone between Xanga entries since I started on 01/01/2005.

Softball update
07/13/2005 – My team lost by two runs.  I went 0-for-2 with a fielder’s choice, a groundout to second, and a walk (1 run scored).

07/20/2005 – My team lost by seven runs.  I went 0-for-2 with two pop ups to the second baseman, two walks (2 runs scored).  We were down by only 1 run as the visiting team going into the bottom of the 6th inning when we gave up a 6 spot.  I made the penultimate out of the game on my second pop up.  I just can’t seem to drive the ball well!  I guess I’m not waiting long enough for the ball to come down so I’m still getting under it.  If only they could simply pitch the ball overhand to me, that would be exponentially easier to hit the ball even though it’s going faster!

This brings me to a related issue.  I’ve never been on a winning team in my life except for my freshman year in high school baseball when we had a winning record and got to the first round of the playoffs but lost in the 7th inning to a team we crushed in the regular season.  I rode the bench that year so I don’t really count it that much.  Every other team I’ve been on has never had a winning season.  This include Uncle Ted’s (Low) softball team which won championships the summers before and after I played.  Am I cursed?  I don’t think so.  I think I have decent talent and raw athletic ability.  After all, you can’t coach speed.  And speed kills.  I can be a very competitive person when I’m on the field/court and you’ll hear me be much more vocal than I am at other times.  I suppose this is perhaps one of the ways God keeps me in check.  I don’t know.  What I do know, is that I should keep playing just to have fun and get a little exercise.  Winning is nice (very nice), but I suppose it’s just icing on the cake.

When you got down to the nitty gritty, the meat and potatoes, the nuts and bolts, folks, just remember the victory is the Lord’s!!!

On a different note, I’m saddened that some of my peers in college in general who seemed to be wholly/holy devoted to God when we were all serving Him in college don’t seem to be as intent on living for His glory and fame and making much of Him in their current lives.  I don’t know why that is, but I will be praying for them all.  I believe the pursuit of a more intimate relationship with Christ should be foremost priority over careers, leisure, recreation, toys, and so on and so forth.  I’ll be the first to admit that I’ve wrestled with this too, but by God’s grace, He humbles me and has me check myself before I wreck myself so to speak.

We were meant to live for so much more.  Have we lost ourselves?